June 16, 2014

Not really sure when I'll get tired of "starting over new" or "taking the first step", but I figure as long as I keep trying there is still some fight left in me. Since I began this blog in 2010...I've experienced a lot of changes.

First, I graduated from Wayne State University with my MBA (focusing on organizational management). I ended a 2yr relationship, I bought a new house, I resigned from my job, I began dating someone new (18months and counting), and I started a new job back in my home town.

Notice that I left information about my weight out? Well I haven't made any notable progress on my weight loss journey except I've had a couple of things happen that confirmed why I needed to never give up on myself. One major thing is that I recently changed healthcare insurance coverage providers and in my annual assessment visit the doctor ran lab tests and told me that I was displaying signs of being a pre-type II diabetic. This new blog post conveniently came after my maternal grandmother experienced diabetic complication prior to surgery and I had to go with her to doctor appointments and watch her be taught how to administer over 4 shots of insulin to herself a day and take at least 4 blood samples a day. Well my grandmother is 72 years old and I'm 27. That scared me. I also had a close friend of mine get married in 2013 and I was asked to be one of her bridesmaids. While I know nothing about this day was abotu me, I personally battled with pictures and I was so upset at myself for ruining her day. This was the first time I every felt "self conscious" about my weight.

So today, June 16th---I'm not quite sure where to start or where to go, but I know that I need to do something. I started a walking/steps challenge with my mom and co-worker, and I'm trying to make it to 10,000 steps per day. Its the small things.

In my head an ideal Kyra would be one that works out everyday 5a for an hour or 530a for 1/2 hour. That consumes 1500 calories a day. Can fit into a size 10/12 and that weighs about 160-165. I guess I need to work on making my dreams a reality. Is today my day 1?