What’s really my issue?
2010 is ending, and like most people I am beginning to consider my “New Year’s Resolutions” ::sigh:: What I don’t want to do is continue on this noncommittal path that I am on right now. I had the bright idea to create a blog---a blog that would document my weight loss journey. Bright idea---because what I failed to realize is that in order to document a weight loss journey, one must actually commit to losing weight!! (Can we see a pattern here?) So maybe we should begin fresh and brand new, I mean it is a New Year right? (Well not actually, but I don’t need the calendar to be on Jan 1 to start anew)
Let’s start from the beginning---My name is Kyra and this is my story. I have always had a “struggle” with my weight in the sense that I had a lot of self esteem issues growing up and I was always a little thick. Accredited to the build of the women in my family, I accepted that I may not ever fit the BMI/Height-Weight chart that says a female my age and height should weigh about 110-120lbs (yeah right!). Anyhow, throughout high school in 2004 I was a comfortable size 10—at least that is what size my prom dress was---fluctuating between 150-160 lbs. I was medium active in high school, playing tennis, golf, cheerleading and dance over the 4 years. However in college I gradually gained weight, reaching my highest weight of gaining 40-50 lbs in one school year. I nearly failed my sophomore year and spent my junior year eating my way off of academic probation. My activity level dropped significantly and my eating habits got worst. Currently, I have in addition to my college weight, gained about 15 additional pounds as a result of my current profession---and my lack of self control. I currently work as a consultant and I travel about 2-3 weeks out of the month for at least 3 days per trip. I usually receive about $44 a day in paid food expenses…(got an idea of how much take- out food I eat?)
So what sparked this new train of thought? I am 23 years young and beginning to be concerned about my health and my habits; and I am frankly becoming embarrassed by the apparent “letting go” I’ve done. Though I am not experiencing self esteem issues, I do find it harder to shop for my new body type and I just don’t feel as comfortable carrying this additional weight. Like I said, when given the opportunity, I love to participate in certain sports, but I am noticing my breathing increasing and just frankly I am too out of shape to keep up---especially when it comes to playing my first love---tennis. Additionally, several diseases are common in my family on both my father and mother’s sides. All preventable diseases, high blood pressure, diabetes, strokes, etc, I am afraid to contract any of these conditions simply because I cannot stop eating.
So what’s the plan? Well eat less work out more? I’ve tried that, and I think I need to explore a more lifestyle inclusive, discipline driven approach. I tried weight watchers, and with the help of my mother, I lost nearly 20 lbs, however, the strict calorie counting was not conducive to my lifestyle and therefore, I gained the weight back plus a couple of pounds.
I would like to take a new approach to this blog than I originally sought, and I would like to genuinely make myself more accountable for changes that I yearn to see. I know these words are merely words across your screen---however, I think I am going to try and document more frequently, therefore increasing my accountability. I plan to post before after pictures, methodologies, exercises, recipes, and lifestyle tips as I continue on this journey.
Step 1: as I sit on this plane, DCA to DTW…I will throw out these 2 double chocolate chunk cookies w white chocolate, and enjoy the sugar snap peas and carrots I packed in my purse on my way home; but only if I feel hungry. I need to begin to eat when I feel hungry and not just to keep myself busy….
One small step for Ky…stay tuned.
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